It’s so hard to not compare myself to my friend

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We used to be close but we’ve kinda drifted but she’s still in my sorta inner circle of friends. I don’t have a bad word to say about her, she has never done anything wrong but I’m starting to feel so crap now. Everyone I like prefers her and chooses her over me and I’m just so deflated

I was talking to a guy from a dating app for a few weeks, then bumped into him on a night out with her. He ghosted me the next day and slid into her dms and said ‘you’re much more my type’ and tried to chat to her. She didn’t respond and told me and it wasn’t a big deal at all

Then my closest friend (A) who I hung out w all the time started distancing from me and now they’re ‘the’ best friends. I’ve been completely replaced in my A’s life with this friend and me and A haven’t talked in months now.

Then a guy at work I thought was kinda cute came on a night out with us. We chatted lots and then the next day I found out they hooked up and as far as I’m aware they’re dating now

And now today the guy I actually really fancy but !!! doesn’t know I exist!!! has asked her out after meeting her yesterday and she’s considering saying yes (as her and the prev guy are v casual and new)

Like I said she hasn’t done anything wrong so I am not mad w her or anything at all but it just seems that everyone in my life prefers her and I just feel so inadequate and sad and my confidence is at an all time low and I’m just sad now 🙁 Idk how to not compare myself to her, I used to be so confident and sure of myself but I now hate everything I say because I can’t stop thinking about how who I am clearly isn’t good enough so I should just shut up and be more like her