I can’t be a mom. It is a fact and i cant deny it but i feel extremely disappointed with myself.
I am mentally unstable. It comes and goes in waves. We initially thought of having kids end of this year. But yeah, it aint happening when my husband talked sense with me few days ago.. May i ask should i just give up on being a mother? I cant guarantee to be okay when i choose to have kids and have one. Wouldnt it be unfair for my kids to have a mother like me? I will try my best but what if i relapse?
I hate to admit my husband is right. I am not ready.. He didnt say i cant be one forever. But i kinda feel like with me, yeah i wont be fit to be one forever. My husband and i have discussed this before, we would love to have kids but if we cant, we will be happy with two of us.
So, anyone, enlighten me. How is it going for you that is already a mom? and how about you guys that choose to not have kids because of it?