I feel embarrassed to even ask that question, but please read for context. Why do I feel judged, bad and guilty for being aware of my beauty around other people even if I spread kindness? Why do I feel like I need to pretend I’m “not that pretty” around some people even when I’m actually aware, loving and accepting of that, and also the fact that I’m proud of being successful in both of my careers?
Some people seem to HATE IT when I’m evidently aware of the fact that I know I was born with the physical beauty I inherited from my family (and how hard I train and take care of myself!). Some people seem to HATE IT when I have nothing negative to say about my work and studies. I don’t even flaunt any of those things, they’re just obvious, they’re my reality. There is no hiding the fact that I’m beautiful and that I get to things I love for a living.
It honestly makes me feel so DAMN alone because I’m not even trying to pretend I’m better than absolutely ANYONE, I just want to be able to admit that I love getting my picture taken because I LOVE what I see in the mirror, and to meet other people who feel that way about themselves too!
I want to spread love about what I do for a living and be proud of myself without people side-eyeing me just because I said something positive when I AM ASKED. MY GOODNESS! TELL. ME. I’M. NOT. ALONE, please. 🥺