She’s getting the version of him i begged for

I know it is hard to hear but he did not love you like that. And you will absolutely wreck yourself if you keep comparing. First step is love yourself like you wanted him to. Buy yourself flowers, be kind to yourself and stop treating yourself in a toxic manner. You are not loving yourself right now looking at those photos. Next, when the times come there will be someone who loves you like that and that sees your worth. I never believed that it would be right until I met my husband. It made so much sense why all the other relationships failed. But first as cheesy as it sounds be kind to yourself first, go out with friends, pick up a hobby, treat yo self. It will get better but it will take time. Lots of love!!