Look, breaking up sucks. It’s excruciating, no matter how well you know that the relationship has run its course. But you’ve lived without him for a good chunk of your life and you are going to make it without him again.
You will survive this, the pain that comes with separating is real and normal, but you will eventually be okay about it. Accept that it’s scary and unsettling, and that it takes time and patience. I promise you, you’ll get over it.
Of course you’re strong , otherwise you wouldn’t even know how to articulate your vulnerability and your need for support. It’s just a shame that you can’t hug through reddit!