I went to my gynecologist last month to talk about why birth control hasn’t been working for me in helping my cramps and she suspected it might be endometriosis but wasn’t sure and said we wouldn’t know until next month and put me on depo which I used to take that helped but stopped due to rapid weight gain and lowering my self esteem.
It didn’t work this time. My cramps were still really bad like I’ve been repeatedly punched there and after going back to see her she determined that the most likely cause is endometriosis and gave me a stack of papers that talked about it but I’m still scared. Surgery is an option but it might not even fix the problem and I have to remain on depo until January meaning they pain won’t go away and the fact my pain got worse with age and that it’ll be difficult or impossible to get pregnant makes me feel worse and I can’t sleep with all these horrible thoughts in my head…