I’ve been I relationships but I’ve never had a partner. Tbh my friendships have been more of partnership’s than any relationship I’ve had abd u realzied I’ve been counting too much on them which isn’t bad in itself but it is bad when all your friends get into relationships that become their primary partnership and then you end up left alone.
I’ve gotten to the age where all if my friends are getting married/having kids and I’m happy for them but I wish I had that too. I just want someone I can count on and who actually loves me.