I was talking to psychologist the other day and telling her that somehow i can’t control these irrational thoughts about my boyfriend leaving or talking to other people and stuff like that, I’ve always thought it’s a direct cause of my anxiety, and maybe it is. My boyfriend is the greatest guy in the world and i know he would never do this btw; yet, i can’t stop having these thoughts from time to time even if he has shown me nothing but love in years we’ve been together.
Throughout my life lots of men have done things to me that are hard to get by, and even tho I’m over most of them i definitely think they have affected my perception of the world in some sense; while I’m not an untrusting person i do take more precautions when it comes to male friends or people i know in general.
While i was talking to psychologist it came to the conversation that maybe these irrational thoughts i have come from the fact that I’m scared or not trusting of men cuz i feel they all wanna harm me in some way or another, and the way my boyfriend could hurt me is by doing those things my head thinks. I don’t know how I could solve this, if any of you have experienced things like this and have gotten better i would love some advice, it’s really mentally exhausting for me to be having these intrusive thoughts, i just wanna be happy and in peace for once :c