I don’t know what to do I wish there was a rehab to withdrawal from a connection so strong, toxic & abusive… I was doing so well had women’s refuge involved my mental health was starting to get right everything was going right…
It then took one night of weakness with the childs father and his manipulation towards my mental health and he was back and shit started to go down hill again…
I got trapped up in lies once again promises and empty words I really thought he was changing… He brought out the worse in me once again and then I ended up calling the police once again he ended up getting arrested he’s been in since Saturday evening and court is on Monday… I don’t understand why I’m feeling so draind, worried & scared.
I don’t know how one moment of weakness turned into this & since then my ED is coming back, My mental health = 💩 everything is becoming draining and (I feel) takes so much effort I’m trying to be strong for our baby but all of the stuff happening with the childs father is so overstimulating and anxious…
Any advice? I guess I’m just venting… None of my family or friends know I’m battling again and I sure as hell will keep sending them flowers just so that they can’t see the weeds growing in my backyard because everyone was so proud of me but I can’t disappoint them no more so I’ve chosen to stay quite however it feels much more alone this time.