Who are you when you’re alone?

There’s a part in William Gibson’s novel Neuromancer that has always stuck in my memory, where a character observes that Armitage, the guy who is running the heist operation, seems to just shut down and look completely blank when he’s not otherwise occupied or needed. That’s kind of how I feel when I’m alone. I’m not really aware of myself as a Self. I just sort of exist and react to input while reviewing memories, problem solving, or making future plans. It makes me realize that a lot of what I think of as my “personality” is just performative.