What about your partner do you find completely unattractive?

She is bipolar and with that comes unpredictable mood swings in which she can be really cruel. I don’t hate her bipolar or her inability to control it. What I hate – is that we’ve been together for awhile, and she doesn’t apologize for it anymore. It has become so normal and has occurred so many times, for so long, that she no longer apologizes for it. I’m unsure if she even feels bad after she has outbursts. I know it’s wrong to expect apologies for behavior that is quite literally uncontrollable, but it would make things a lot easier for me to deal with. It’s like being with an abuser that is allowed to abuse you because they have abuse disease.