I am. It comes from a need to be the best because that’s the only way I can cope. If I am second or below, I don’t want to even try. I have to know I can be the best at whatever it is, and I have to pretend any other competitions I may be capable of participating in are unimportant to me. I’m not sure why but it probably has something to do with being picked on a lot when I was a kid.